Giving myself a break

This #thankyouthursday, I am grateful for giving myself a break.

Yesterday the alarm clock went off and my partner was supposed to get up and go for a run but instead he said “I don’t WANT to,” and he turned off the alarm and went back to sleep.

I was so annoyed! I thought, “Oh, so, we can just say ‘I don’t want to,’ and then we’re absolved of responsibility?” How convenient.

How untrue—because there are so many things I do not want to do, and yet I do them anyway.

And so does my partner, who did eventually get up and go for the run, just like I eventually realized my irritation had nothing to do with him and everything to do with my own sense of overwhelm.

Basically, I was jealous that he gave himself a break, because I wanted a break.

So I took a break!

There are so many things I do not want to do, and I am doing them anyway. But I can ALSO claim time for rest(oration). And I can be flexible with how I meet my obligations and manage my responsibilities. I can be kind to the worries in my head, patient with my fears, gentle with my judgments.

I can give myself a break, and I am grateful.

Love > fear,
Christina