Beginning again

This #thankyouthursday, I am grateful for beginning again.

Before two days ago, I could not have told you the last time I meditated.

But a confluence of circumstances enabled/prompted me to seize a full five minutes of my day on Tuesday. I sat down, set my Insight Timer, closed my eyes, and began again.

I am so grateful for beginning again.

Mindfulness matters to me, so much. I have felt this way for years, but, also for years(!), I have been navigating major life changes that have made it much harder to sit still for long stretches.

That’s not an excuse, exactly, but it is definitely the truth.

And maybe precisely because I have been passionate about mindfulness for so long, I have mostly been compassionate about my lapse in a formal meditation practice. (I have to clarify “formal,” because my “informal” meditation practice—aka taking deep breaths whenever I remember/need to—is going strong.)

In any case, this week my kid started preschool, and I also finished reading an excellent book called Raising Good Humans. (I highly recommend it, whether or not you have or want offspring.)

I understand I have been doing my best. Most people are. So instead of being mean to myself for “failing,” I have trusted myself to begin again when I could.

Tuesday, I was able to begin again. So I did. It was great. And I am grateful.

Love > fear,
Christina